So my life has changed quite a bit in the last few years since my first and only blog when I spoke of my 9 month old daughter Cadence - who is now 4 years old.
Cadence now has a 20 month old brother, along with her 19 year old sister and 18 year old brother. I am also a full-time stay at home mom, having taken a year of unpaid leave from my job as an Educational Assistant. In an attempt to make our finances a little easier to manage with only one income right now, I have also become an avid "couponer". I would rank myself in the intermediate to expert range in skills with couponing, which makes me sound like the worlds biggest nerd, but if I showed you my grocery budget and my stockpile room, you might want my autograph.
Being 38 with 2 toddlers is so much different than being 20 with two toddlers! I remember having so much energy as that 20 year old, but being a complete idiot with no wisdom to apply to my parenting (what 20 year old has wisdom?) and I was also a single mom by the time my second was born so I ran that mission solo. For another 10 years until I met my fiance Kerry and started my second batch of kids. So now I am old enough to appreciate everything they do. I treasure every moment. But I treasure it as an old lady lol. Having the 19 and 18 year olds is a daily reminder how FAST time flies (they were just in diapers YESTERDAY weren't they? And now I see them in their bar pics whooping it up with their other adult aged friends....so bizarre). So yes, I eat up every moment with my little ones with a spoon, and drink in the memories and images. But can I roll around with them as often as that 20 year old mom did? Can I get up and go with them like I did with my first two? Can I get up feeling refreshed after only 5 hours of sleep and do it all over again? Well, I can do the first two, but a lot slower and the last one: refreshed feelings only occur after consuming at least one cup of coffee in the morning. And "refreshed" isn't quite the right word I would come up with whilst staring at the mess in the mirror, even after a second cup of coffee. "Surviving" is a better word. But content is a word I can use now that I couldn't use back then. I know who I am, where I've been and where I'm going. I suppose that holds value.
Anyways, as Cadence is a night owl and still sleeping at 9:28am here, my Ryker is 3 hours into his morning and has just informed me that he peed and pooped in the playroom. He didn't articulate it perfectly (mostly stared solemnly at me when he came running naked from the room) and said "pee pee" and then pushed a chair up to the counter and grabbed the roll of paper towels he knows mommy will need to use and runs back to the room, chubby bum cheeks a-jiggling. That's my cue to cut this blog short and get back to mommy duty.
Candace :)
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